I woke up groggy, dizzy and nauseous, even feeling tense and sick from a bad dream very early this morning.
I dreamt I lost my car again.
I’ve had recurring dreams on this theme over the past year, and I’d notice that they’d usually occur around times when I’m trying to make some deadline, so I figured that it’s just my mind’s way of waking me up early so I can beat the deadline.
But this morning’s dream was so intense, I woke up breathless, with a palpitating heart.
I dreamt that I was walking along what looked like Ayala Ave. in Makati (a prime business and financial district in Manila, Philippines, like Wall St. in New York) looking for my old green, Brasilia car (in real life, it was sold long ago), as I’d forgotten where I parked it. Along the way, I met friends from work asking me where I was going, and when I’d tell them they’d just smile sadly to commiserate and make some suggestions which I’ve already thought of anyway. Not much help.
So, now, I search for “lost car dream” interpretations on the net and am quite surprised it’s a common theme among people’s dreams.
These ones resonate with me most (emphases mine):
1. From Dreamhawk —
The loss of something that enables you to go where you want to in life, or that you are carried along by to your goals or toward something. This can be a belief or a fear or any strong feeling or motivation that carried you through life and enabled you to reach goals.
If you connect your car with independence, then this links with the loss of that and your ability to have your own space or freedom.
This type of dream sometimes comes while you are really questioning who you are and what you want – a turning point in your life direction. The dreams also occasionally include one returning to where you left the car and not finding it. This is about a life situation connected with losing the motivations and ordinary convictions or stimulus that you usually had. It can happen when a mother arrives at the point her children leave and are independent and she suddenly loses the motivations that kept her going for years.
Can I define what it is in my life I have lost, and how it went from me?
Are there external circumstances that have led to this loss?
What do I feel in the dream when I realise I have lost my car, and where do those feelings appear in my waking life?
2. From Experience Project —
To dream of lost car means one has lost one’s way in life. The typical image is of the car being left earlier in a parking lot and now the owner is not sure where to find it. Details of the parking lot environment can be very informative. In waking life the dreamer feels a strong need to set a clear, ‘worthy’ goal and begin working towards it in a viable way.
3. Even from WikiAnswers —
Car = decision making
parking lot, car park place = direction to life
It seems like you have some sort of anxiety in your life. Projecting yourself losing car shows sign of losing control in making decision or not knowing exact direction you should move on. It may reflect your anxiety or your personalities in terms of how organized you are. However, the bottom line is that you are seeking for some direction in life and yet you are not sure which is the best one. Losing car seems like a symbol of losing goal in life and you vent it out in dream.
Reflecting on these possible meanings now, I sense some truth in them. It is true, over the past year, I have been feeling like I’ve lost my desires, my drive for the things that used to drive me. In fact, I have gotten so un-attached to these old desires that sometimes, I would wonder if this is what someone in their eighties felt like right before they died, if I was about to die!
In my career, I’ve proven my self many times and am actually taking on the role of mentor now instead of the one being mentored. In my personal life, as a single mom, I have survived the most challenging times when the kids were still in their toddler years, and have developed key life skills that will stand me in good stead for the rest of my life. The kids are in their teen years now, with their heads and hearts in the right places, moving into lives and spaces of their own, and I actually have more time for me now. As for my love life, I have gotten to the point where I love my own self and own company and there’s not so much an addictive need for another person to fill me up and complete my life, as a desire to share my life with another, if that opportunity comes. If it doesn’t, I’m okay with it too.
So I’ve been living in a state of stasis in the past year– not the dark limbo kind of stasis, more like the just Living in the Now kind, just doing enough according to my energies on a best effort basis, but not really caring anymore how the outcome would be.
But I didn’t know I was “searching for direction” (as the possible dream meanings say)! I’ve been happy enough in this state, and would actually like more of this for the rest of my life. 🙂
It’s just that, yes…. I do feel even more like I don’t fit in with the ways of the material world anymore, like I’m just clocking time here on earth to do what I’m supposed to be doing (and I sure hope I’m doing it now and doing it right and well!), like someone at the predeparture terminal of Life, and then when it’s time for my flight to be called, I’ll go, gladly and with relief!
Still, hmmm… more to reflect and chew on here, now that I’ve decided to pay more mindful attention to this dream.